The other night, I watched a movie entitled "The Women". It starred Meg Ryan and the plot was about a woman who lost touch with herself in the midst of a marriage and raising a child. Her husband cheats on her and as a result, she wakes up to her life. Through her pain she finds the courage to reconnect with her authentic self, her inner spark as a clothing designer. Her daughter gains a new appreciation and respect for her mother. Husband wants the chance to get to know her again. Happily ever after. Uh huh.
I would like to be able to someday inspire my own children as well. My goal is to be a role model for my children but it's hard not to feel mediocre especially after you just watched a movie about a beautiful woman whose friends all shop at Saks. I want my children to find the thing they love most and also have the courage to do it and do it with all that's within them. For years I struggled to "discover" my true talents, my "gifts" or simply my purpose. I ignored what was right in front of me. Time again I am called to teach.
Every "job" I have ever had always involved some kind of teaching, some kind of instruction. I resisted this for years because I did not think this was "good enough". Yes, I have a quite the collection of the ol' self help genre of books. It is good to turn to them but when I am truly feeling down and out the book I return to again and again is "Woman Hollering Creek" by Sandra Cisneros. Her writing is so raw and real that it pierces me every time. Wakes me up every time. Journaling really helped me see the patterns in my life and woke me up to the fact that I am here to help guide others.
The true shift for me occurred when I made a choice, and we always have a choice even if those choices feel impossible. I could keep climbing the corporate ladder and hope to be satisfied with trading the bulk of my time for doing work that did not light me up or I could be really brave and choose to follow my desire. To write, to serve and to guide with all of my being.
The point is, sometimes in life we become lost. We select the path we feel we should take or hover in the background in the name of supporting our spouses or our children. You were born to be you, for you. You deserve to explore the inklings, the strange feelings of "what if's". It's not selfish or self serving. It's so necessary and we all need you to stand in the grace of you.
Please share with me how you show yourself to the world.
Love and blessings,